Thursday, July 31, 2008

Of permission slips

"I gave way to delight, as mystics have for centuries when they peeked through the curtains and discovered that this world- so manifestly real was actually a tiny stage set constructed by the mind. We discover abruptly that everything we accept as reality is just social fabrications. - Timothy Leary, 1966

Wednesday, July 30, 2008

of waking up

Pure consciousness is our spiritual essence. Being infinite and unbounded, it is also pure joy. Other attributes of consciousness are: pure knowledge, infinite silence, perfect balance, invincibility, simplicity, and bliss. This is our essential nature. Our essential nature is one of pure potentiality - Deepak Chopra

It's not them, it's you. It's not there, it's here. It's not then, it's now - Unknown author

Your task is not to seek for love, but merely to seek and find all of the barriers within yourself
that you have built against it - A course in miracles

Being is not only beyond but also deep within every form as its innermost invisible and indestructible essence. This means that it is accessible to you now as your own deepest self, your true nature. But don't seek to grasp it with your mind. Don't try to understand it. You can know it only when the mind is still. When you are present, when your attention is fully and intensely in the Now, Being can be felt, but it can never be understood mentally. To regain awareness of Being and to abide in that state of "feeling-realization" is enlightenment - Eckhart Tolle

Six months ago those words would only have made intellectual sense to me, I would have understood the words but not the meaning behind it. The more I understand, the more I know and the more I remember with every cell in my body.

I'm just wondering how it is possible to have not seen and known this as I know it now? How is it possible to be so lost in the dream...unknowing...unconscious? Especially when knowing brings such freedom and joy?

I was watching an episode of Oprah with a couple where the woman was an extreme compulsive hoarder. She had over 1000 sq m of stuff(anything and everything!) packed into their little 300 sq m home. They had mould growing into most of the walls in the house and mice nests (yeeeelch!)! I was watching her going through the trauma of having to throw out stuff that she didn't even need, wondering what I could learn from her when a great analogy came to mind:

I feel like I'm going through the same process of throwing things out...only my things are my thoughts...every one of those unconsciously conditioned thoughts...pulled up, examined to determine their value and worth and chucked out if deemed to be lacking.

I'm slowly becoming aware of all the societal conditioning that serves no purpose at all, other than maintaining limiting and fearful thought patterns. I'm rediscovering the empowering beliefs of love, peace and abundance that are innate. I'm slowly learning to trust my body and my spirit first and be be my own point of entry into my universe.

I'm learning to be, to allow and to resist nothing. It all feels like I'm learning to walk again...with all the falls and subsequent knee scrapes, but also the elation of small and big wonderful successes.

Here's to me being able to run one day :-)

Sunday, July 27, 2008

I so get this conversation. lol

I'm the Hippie Equivalent of Karl Rove
Short shaggy-haired guy: Hahaha, I know, right? (pause) Wait, I don't get it.
Tall shaggy-haired guy: I don't get it either, man. I just say stuff.

--3rd Ave b/w 14th & 15th
via Overheard in New York, Jul 27, 2008

Thursday, July 24, 2008

Not satisfied with your life?

Ask the right questions and then be open to the answers that come. You don't have to do anything different other than ask the right questions...and the answers will come. Write them down or say them out loud...and I kid you not, the answers will come back louder and simpler than you ever imagined. I can say this because I KNOW IT TO BE TRUE IN MY LIFE.

You could be asking a higher power (if you believe in one) or your subconscious (if you don't believe in a higher power). Any which way, you wont know the answers if you don't even ask the questions.

What do you have to lose? Nothing. What do you have to gain? LOADS. It's just a question. Start with the magical word, HOW?

I started asking my questions early this year and so far I've been getting answers in the most wonderful ways and I can see taht I've started a transformation, based on the answers, that is what I never knew I wanted but I wanted.

My HOW questions and inspiration to you:

How do I get the job of my dreams?
How do I become wealthy?

How do I buy property?
How do I find a charity project that I love and will be instrumental in?
How do I learn to assess situations so I act in a way that maximizes my personal, professional, spiritual and financial achievement?
How do I maximize my financial and personal achievement?
How do I become a more loving friend? One that provides her friends with the 5 A’s (Appreciation, Acceptance, Allowing, Affection, Attention) in the right situations?
How do I overcome my fear of success?
How do I get more positive friends?
How do I become the best me?
How do I become more secure and gain self-esteem?
How do I enjoy freedom of body and spirit?
How do I get in touch with my childhood wounds and heal them?
How do I release the anger and grief of my childhood and old wounds?
How can I be of service?
How can I give to people?

WHAT DO YOU NEED TO KNOW TO MAKE YOUR LIFE EXCEPTIONAL? ASK HOW, and then have fun with the answers, for they will come! :-)

Tuesday, July 22, 2008

Of the obvious

Which 11 letter word does everyone always spell incorrectly?

(The truth of our existence is as obvious as the answer to this question)

Of greatness

Great: of major significance or importance

The greatest achievement is selflessness.
The greatest worth is self-mastery.
The greatest quality is seeking to serve others.
The greatest precept is continual awareness.
The greatest medicine is the emptiness of everything.
The greatest action is not conforming with the worlds ways.
The greatest magic is transmuting the passions.
The greatest generosity is non-attachment.
The greatest goodness is a peaceful mind.
The greatest patience is humility.
The greatest effort is not concerned with results.
The greatest meditation is a mind that lets go.

The greatest wisdom is seeing through appearances. - Atisha

Sunday, July 20, 2008

Of synchronicity

Quite seemingly in anticipation of all my questions and confusion regarding emotions and their disturbing nature, my daily meditation says:

" It is important to recognize the power of our emotions--and to take responsibility for them by creating a light and positive atmosphere around ourselves. This attitude of joy that we create helps alleviate states of hopelessness, loneliness, and despair. Our relationships with others thus naturally improve, and little by little the whole of society becomes more positive and balanced." - Tarthang Tulku

I heartily and joyfully concur.

Saturday, July 19, 2008

Of emotions

I just started reading Tolle's "The power of now" and had my breath knocked out of me by the following:

"Emotion literally means disturbance...the word comes from the Latin emovere, meaning "to disturb"

So at this point I'm going yeah...uh WTF? All emotions are a state of disturbance? If they are...why the hell do we have them? For blimings sake!!! Who thought (haha, thought: the stuff illusions are made of, feature again) us up? We have thoughts...which according to Tolle, beget emotions...which constitute our experiences, which then make up our ego...and our sole purpose on earth is to be awaken to the fact that we are not our thoughts or our ego??????? Brillfu*******iant!

He goes on to explain that certain states of being are misconstrued as being emotions. Our natural self, higher being/self, as some teachers call it, is in an eternal joyous, peaceful and loving state (A divine state). So joy, peace and love are states of being and have no opposite (don't quite understand the last part about opposites but I do get the natural state of being...I've felt it during and shorty after meditation, before all my pesky thoughts kick in lol ayaiyai!).

Emotions arise from thoughts of things outside of us (things we do/experience)...our natural state of being arises from within us and is separate from whatever situation we are in.

And of course the only way to bring about our natural state of being is to be in the NOW!

hmmmm....I'm a little bamboozeled by all this....

to be ctd

Friday, July 18, 2008

Just imagine!

I-magi-nation: the self as a nation of magicians.

I just came across this definition that's set me thinking like crazy:

Imagination is the door to the dimension that is in touch with all other realities. One cannot imagine something that is not real. Everything we imagine is happening somewhere somehow…as we do not have the capacity to imagine non-existence.

Our definition of imagination.

Imagination: is the ability to form mental images, or the ability to spontaneously generate mind images. It helps provide meaning to experience and understanding to knowledge; it is a fundamental facility through which people make sense of the world, and it also plays a key role in the learning process.

Imagination: the formation of a mental image of something that is not perceived (who's to say it isn't) as real and is not present to the senses.

The imagination is often
addressed as the highest creative faculty of the mind. It is an ancient practice and falls under the category of martial arts.

Ha! just imagine! lol

Thursday, July 17, 2008

To power or not to...

Imagine a tower made of blocks. Given a bunch of other blocks and asked to chose the easier option: build a new tower or destruct the standing one...which one would be the easier option?

The easier option is of course to destroy the tower that is already standing. Why???

The answer, when I heard it, astounded me. Its easier to destroy because it does not require power.

Lets have that again:

Its easier to destroy because it does not require power. Bashar

So the question made me think of my choice to act from a place of empowerment, from an energy that is in alignment with my true self. The premise is that our true self is empowered and in a natural state of being childlike, glorious, playful, free, harmonious, expansive, compassionate, creative, inclusive and passionate. Or whether I choose to be dis-empowered and be all about criticism, limitation, boredom, irritation, anger, judgment etc

I have to say that I'm still gravitating alarmingly towards dis-empowerment. I think the need to complain is probably my biggest crutch right now. That and being instantly judgmental...of

What are you choosing out there? Are you building the tower? or destroying it?

Friday, July 11, 2008

I'm diving further under the duvet

But resurfaced briefly to share some light....

If the doors of perception were cleansed, everything would appear to man as it is, infinite. - William Blake

Finished Tolle and found one of my favoritest sentences:

"I am a hole in a flute that the Christ's breath moves through. Listen to this music" Hafiz, fourteenth century Persian poet.

right...going back to my fetal survival position...