Friday, January 28, 2011

The Highly Sensitive Person

Of him Pearl S. Buck wrote:

To him...

a touch is a blow,
a sound is a noise,
a misfortune is a tragedy,
a joy is an ecstasy,
a friend is a lover,
a lover is a god,
and failure is death.

My HSP traits.

I avoided being around other children when I was a child myself. I found children to be noisy, obnoxious and stressing! I still do.

I cut people out of my life when my relationship with them stresses me. The list of cut out people gets longer, the older I get.

I get startled easily and by almost anything.

I have an aversion to daily routines. I need to shake things up, once in a while, or I feel imprisoned.

I get concerned and think or worry about many things, and have also been told "you take things too personally." I'll be worrying about something someone told me in passing, while the someone doesn't even remember that they said the thing.

I can intuitively sense when someone is not telling me the truth, or they are trying to manipulate me or anyone else.

I'm just generally more aware of subtleties in relational dynamics. At this point, I really dislike this trait. A party or cafe visit is just not a party or cafe visit. It turns into a psychological study of the meaning of life in my mind!!!

I love living near large water bodies. I currently live near a lake and will be moving to a place near the sea. I also take looooong showers. Waters soothes me :-)

I am very conscientious, hard working, and meticulous, but I become uncomfortable and less efficient or productive when being watched or scrutinized. In fact I'll become a complete klutz, if someone is watching me to see if I can do something, or if I'm required to prove my abilities.

I am easily overwhelmed by chaos or clutter. I haaaate messes! Love a tidy room, preferably painted all white and with minimal furniture (also white).

I cant watch televised programs. The adverts rattle the hell out of me. All that racket (do they increase the sound for adverts???) and the quick flashing images...urghhhh!!!

I cant watch horror movies. I avoid sad movies and any troubling stories. As I somehow internalize the VERY worst of what is being shown or told and then replay it as if it were happening to me!!!!!!

I am empathetic, conscientious (sucks! always seems to work as a disadvantage) and I focus on solutions.

I need my days under the duvet, or I'll break down (this is getting worse with age, it seems).

I get very tired if I spend time too much time with people. I need my alone time, otherwise I feel imprisoned and start feeling like I want to flee, form this palnet. Literally...if I had a rocket, I'd be gone!

I'm still trying to make something of all these disjointed traits. Apparently HSP's are very creative and gifted, and I do see people recognizing something big in me, but the moment they do that, I disappear. I hate the attention, it feels damn suffocating. So, so far...I'm still searching....


Cold Turkey said...

So much alike

gal africana said...

Be very blessed Cold Turkey :-)